I don't know right now..

I'm not sure what to think about anymore, I feel so befuddled of thoughts, and just rants throughout my brain, and I'm just not sure of "what" emotion I should be feeling right now. Between depression and all the meds, and just the stress from school alone, I've had enough of it. I need some Jesus right now, and I think there are some other concerns such as my friends mother has cervical cancer and shes a really nice person, so I hope things really get better for her, and when I heard her speak today, she just didn't sound so positive about where things are going with this, because she thought it was cured. So I'm just a bit worried about that...And then of course my best friend Christina, whom I know will read this and go, "Mmhmm", is stuck in Tennessee, on lock down within her household which sucks big time, and she just feels as though her car is broken down on the highway with no spare tire...

Anyone reading this, I just really need some prayers, and not to mention my own personal crap thats going on doesn't help the situation, and just...I don't know. I'm really trying to fulfill my duty to God, it just gets so difficult sometimes to feel motivated when school work blocks that "level" of enthusiasm.
I want to just live somewhere peaceful, focus on the Lord, and live a nice life....

I also want to mention that right now I'm feeling as though I'm stupid, for example, Why is it I do so poorly on my tests in school? I study. I read. I listen in class. I mean am I an idiot? or what? it frustrates me like mad. People who fart around in class get A's when I'm someone working my butt off for the B? I mean um correct me if I'm wrong but does something seem screwed up here? Then there is of course this whole change of Schools, that was a huge mistake, and I can't do anything about it - but cope with it. Good thing I've learned to master with coping from the past...or I'd be throwing in the flag right about now. These kids annoy me, and makes me want to hit one of them in the face, and its a very "cultural" school, and there is just no chance of "friend-making" for me. Not to mention that my trust levels aren't exactly easy to get. So pray that this school year goes by quickly for me...2nd Semester here I come....oh joy. :/